TAM, I find reading you that you are extremely self aware, and more so than most. You display compassion to yourself and others through your writing - clearly your uninhibited self, I presume - and I hope feel safe here and understood.

I learn so much from what you share, thanks for not feeling like a crazy person...the truth is, there is a little crazy in all of us, and the more one studies and understands how easily the mind and brain can create its own justifications and impressions -- the more empathetic we all should become to understand why experiences can be so drastically different. It's definitely not black and white.

Wishing you the happiest of new years TAM!!