Oh Leonard, I’m moved by this piece — feeling inadequate. This was written from such a deep place please know it’s impactful …there’s a special someone who has cut off ties with his father and this, this is what I feel this person could live with but the “cutting off” offers comfort now—I do hope it’s sufficient for the future.
For what it’s worth—for what I see now—the pain done by the living leave such ingrained hurt it stays fresh while they live—maybe something happens once they pass, in addition to your own aging that makes it the perfect time for reconciliation. Almost a—just the right way and time for you to make peace. I wish you peace…you certainly lived and loved in a way she would be incredibly proud of. Hold on to what that picture beside her bed meant if you left it….truth is, a mother is a part of all of us, no matter how small or big.
Hearts to you!!