I am very very happy for you, you have reasonably justified it but here’s the deal…
It’s your money, however you wish to spend it, it’s entirely yours.

I can think of far many more ways people blow off this money and neither, they, others, plants or animals benefit from it!

You look fabulous! Glad you feel yourself…loving that you’re writing again!
The world is now more aligned—bug hug! Happy holidays!