Getting better - and as you, it doesn't happen consistently.
What I find is happening is:
When I don't want to bare my soul on Medium but need to release it and just write - journal writing is fantastic.
I also find that I want to do this more often because I don't want to forget details of my life -- years ago I did it when my kids were small...and my computer crashed and they are all gone. It's one of my most painful experiences because I captured cute moments for so many years - and ugh - they are gone.
Now I have my articles saved on a thumb drive - ugh, it would be so devastating to lose those too.
Do you use digital journaling or do you use pen/paper journals?